LOVE is the key to REALIZING I AM THE CHRIST

PETE'S JOURNAL, APRIL 2002

4-1-02
Yesterday was Easter Sunday... a beautiful day here.

"The Tree of Life is located in the midst of the paradise of God. The very depth of our own Soul. And of all the rich, abundant fruit that grows and ripens on it to the fullest perfection, the most perfect and life-giving, is Love."

"Love has been defined by those who perceive its true character as the greatest thing in the world. I might add that it is the greatest healing force in the world. Love never fails to meet every demand of the human heart. The Divine Principle of Love may be used to eliminate every sorrow, every infirmity, every harsh condition and every lack that harasses humanity."

"With the right understanding and use of the subtle and illimitable influence of Love, the world may be healed of its wounds, and the sweet mantle of its heavenly compassion may cover all inharmony, all ignorance, and all mistakes of mankind."

"With wings outstretched, Love searches out the arid spots of the human heart, the waste places of life, and with seeming magic touch redeems humanity and transforms the world."

"Love is God... eternal, limitless, changeless, going beyond all vision of infinitude. The end we can only vision. Love fulfills a law of its own, consummates its perfect work, and reveals the Christ within the Soul of man. Love is ever seeking an inlet whereby it may flow forth into the Soul of man, and pour itself out as all good to him."

"If it is not disturbed by man's perversity and discordant thinking, God's eternal, changeless current of love flows ever onward, carrying before it, into the great universal sea of forgetfulness, every appearance of inharmony or ugliness which disturbs the peace of man."

"Love is the perfect fruit of the spirit; it goes forth, binding up the wounds of humanity, drawing nations into closer harmony, and bringing peace and prosperity to the world. Humanity must be charged with this current of Love from the great Omnipresent Life if it would do the works of Jesus."

Seek God
And love Him
With all your heart (emotions)
With all
Your mind (thoughts)
With all
Your strength (will)
With all
Your Soul. (being)

"Jesus was a man the same as all men are today. He suffered, was tempted and tried, just as you suffer because of temptation and trials. We know that during His residence on earth in the visible body Jesus spent hours every day alone with God and we know that, in His early manhood, He went through just what we have gone through, and what you are going through today."

"We know that every man must overcome the mortal, the fleshly desires, the doubts and fears, until he comes to the perfect consciousness or recognition of the indwelling Presence, this 'Father in me,' to whom Jesus ascribed the credit of all His mighty works.

"He had to learn as we had to learn, and as you are learning today. He was obliged to try over and over again as you are doing. He was obliged to hold fast as you are obliged to hold fast today, even with clenched fist and set teeth saying, 'I will succeed, I know the Christ lives within me."

"He soon found that this did not take long years of weary plodding through dogmas, rituals, creeds, formulas and initiations...[This does not take long years of study, nor need you go through training or hardships or deprivation.]"

"He realized that that for which he was seeking was right within himself. He knew that in order to be the Christ he must declare that he was the Christ; then with pure motive of life... thought, word, and deed he must live the life he sought, in order to incorporate it within his own physical body."


"Jesus went through the perfect crucifixion of self, that He might lead His people to God; that He might show them the way out of sin, sickness, and trouble, that they might manifest the Father in them; that He might teach all that the same Father lives in all and loves all."

"None that follow Jesus' life and teachings closely can help but love Him. He is our perfect elder brother."

From: The Life and Teaching of the Masters of the Far East

4-2-02
The results of physical and mental purity for you will be: the Living God will live in and function through your body; you will hear the inner Voice of your Soul; you will realize freedom of your personal mind from the mental clutter and feelings of guilt and remorse; you will be free of all bad memories; you will have tremendous energy; you will not feel any pain when you are injured; you will always be optimistic and hopeful; you will never be sick; you will be free of sexual lust; and you will be at peace with yourself and others.

You can easily prove the truth of these statements for yourself.

4-3-02
When a person sets out on a project, say, to overhaul the worn out engine in their car, they don't focus on the worn out engine, they focus on the "ideal," the completely overhauled engine with all new parts.

And so it is with the seekers path. The ideal is the Christ consciousness that we desire to express. We put behind us and forget the old ways of the personal self. We are not that person any more. We are the Christ... one with God.

We focus or concentrate our energies, our love on that ideal Being. Since our very being...God, is love; we need to express love, let it flow through us, to connect ourselves to the Whole of God. We need to completely let go of our old ways, our old self, and let God's love flow through us and renew our being.

We direct our love both inward to God, and outward to all of His creations. Everything is God. Love God by worship, praise and obedience to His laws. Love God's creations by letting your\His love flow through you to your brothers and sisters, angelic beings and to all of nature.

When a brother or sister reaches out to you for a helping hand, take their hand and let your love flow through you to them by helping them to meet their needs. Do what you can, quietly, without fanfare and then move on and let them get on with their life.

To love is a learning process, the more you practice letting love flow through you by helping others, the more you will understand and gain confidence, and the more your spirit will grow. Love is food for the Soul.

We don't need to go around looking for things to do or people to help, that would be the way of the old personal self. We should live our life and let others live theirs. Let things be. We are not going to save the world by our actions, only little pieces of it, once in a while, as God directs.

The seekers path is to unite their personal conscious mind with their Soul. That is the Goal. Our Soul will inspire us and our inner Voice will guide us on our path and will show us where we need to give a helping hand.

At first, it may be hard to reach out with a helping hand, even if we know it is the right thing to do. We don't want to interfere, or we don't want to offend or be put down or rejected, or embarrassed...all old self stuff.

When God inspires us to give a helping hand, we should act immediately. We don't need to know all the whys and wherefores. If we hesitate, we may miss the moment.

When I was on the path before, I went to visit my children in a nearby town and was staying in a small hotel. One evening I went out and walked to a small convenience store to buy something I needed. In the store parking lot a man who was obviously very drunk, was trying to turn his pickup around.

I was inspired to ask him if I could drive him home. My old rational mind talked me out of it, and the moment passed. I left the parking lot, the man was still struggling to turn his truck around, and walked back to the hotel.

When I got back to the hotel, I sat down in the lobby by a large picture window that faced the street. A few minutes later a policeman pulled the man in the pickup over right in front of the hotel. I watched as the officer pulled the man out of the truck, handcuff him and pushed him in the back of his patrol car and drive off.

I felt terrible. I could have helped that man. (myself) What of it, if he had of said, "no" or, "get out of here." Inspirations like this are so subtle, so quiet, little undemanding feelings that we should do something; and a person just has a minute or so to act. Such inspirations are very easy for the rational mind to talk a person out of.

The thing is, the Soul doesn't think or reason why, It just "knows" and inspires us to act. Once we are inspired, the decision to act or not, is ours. And again, there may be just a moment to make that decision. It takes practice to let your Soul act through you, to be the Christ, to Love.

Life is the seekers path: Law the guide, Love the way, Light the goal. Love is the life, light and law of the Soul. The Soul yearns to join with the mortal self of man in infinite love and light. 

4-4-02
The following except, was written by Glenn Goytil. The author, a born again Christian, gives eloquent down-home advise on what it takes to make a marriage work.

"To achieve true love, you must go beyond the initial infatuation and stick it out through the tough times; you must work out the hypocrisies of your personalities; you must grow as people and resist being greedy when it comes to love. True love expresses deep caring for one another, it involves unselfish giving and an awareness of your partners needs and desires, it means enjoying each other and not taking each other for granted, it involves commitment, fidelity, and mutual respect; and it doesn't have as much to do with thrills and glamour as does false love."

"It involves honoring and cherishing one another, playing together, taking time to love, and using the friction that you encounter in your relationship to help you grow. If it is to last, it must be worked at and cherished; it must be a high priority, or it will deteriorate. It is best to resolve conflicts and talk to each other on a daily basis rather than play a guessing game to determine each other's needs and wants."

"Generally speaking, the closer the match between each other's desires, the greater the magic of the relationship. It is best to be honest with each other but also to know when it is better to leave things unsaid. Truth can be used as a scalpel, or as a sword, to cut out a cancer or to fight a bloody battle. Be careful how you use the truth."

"I have found that if you use the truth to heal and never hurt, you can say almost anything you want, and the person to whom you are speaking will not be offended. In all things let your kindness and concern come through, and it will be received as such. Know when to be outspoken, when to walk on eggshells, when to put your foot down, and when to lighten up. If you don't get a handle on these things, your relationship is bound to be stormy."

4-5-02
"God's laws are changeless, the same as they have ever been. While they are immutable, they are beneficent, for they are good. When we live in conformity to them, they become the very foundation stones on which we build our health, our happiness, our peace and poise, our success and attainment. If we abide fully in God's law, no evil can befall us. We do not need to be healed, we are every whit whole."

"How well we realize that in the great heart of humanity there is a deep homesickness which never can be satisfied with anything less than a clear consciousness or understanding of God, our Father. We recognize this hunger as hearts cry after God. There is nothing the human soul so longs for as to know God. 'Whom to know aright is life eternal."

"We see people ever shifting from one thing to another, hoping they will find satisfaction or rest in limited, mortal desire. We see them pursuing and gaining these things only to find themselves still unsatisfied. Some fancy they want houses and lands; some, great wealth; and some, great learning. We are privileged to know that man has all these things within himself. Jesus the Great Master, attempted to have all see this."

"In Jesus, the Christ or Central Spark which is God in us all, living in every one today, was drawn forth to show itself perfectly ruling the material body or flesh man. It is in this way that He did all His mighty works, not because He was in some way different from you. He had no greater power than all have today. He was not in some way a Son of God and we only servants of God."

"He did these works because this same Divine Spark which the Father has implanted in every child born, was fanned into a brighter flame by His own efforts in holding Himself in conscious communion with God Himself, the source of all Life, Love, and Power."

"The first step is fully and completely to control all outer activities of thought, mind, and body with the thought always uppermost that you are cultivating the habit of perfection...the Christ of God habit. Get into the habit of seeing this perfect presence as your real self, this Christ of God presence."

"If you cultivate this with love, reverence, devotion, and worship, it becomes a habit and soon it is all of you, your daily life and existence. In a short time you have brought forth Divinity. You are once more the Divine Christ, the first-born of God."

From: The Life and Teaching of the Masters of the Far East

4-6-02
What does it mean to live a "natural lifestyle" today? Does it mean living in a cave or log cabin you built by hand; or driving a horse and buggy rather than a Cadillac; or joining a nudist colony and going around unclothed all the time. Yes and no; where you live is part of it, and how you get around, and sunbathing is certainly a major factor in natural living.

The major considerations in living a natural lifestyle are the things that you take into the body and mind. The things you eat and drink, and the medicine you take. The water you drink and use to bath. The rank smells or pollution in the air you breathe. The things you watch on TV, videos and movies, and the things you read. The news and music you listen to. The clothes with toxic dyes that you put on your skin, and the other things that touch your skin such as soap, cosmetics, lotions and shampoos.

The environment you live in is also very important. You cannot live a quiet peaceful life where there are strong odors, lots of noise or flashing lights; such as next to a stock yard or a garbage dump, a wrecking yard or rifle range, or an amusement park or next to a freeway.

The best place for a seeker to live is in the countryside or woods, somewhat removed from neighbors so that you can sunbathe, walk barefoot, bath nude in the living water, and generally live a quiet, peaceful life without comment. Common sense, inspiration and your Inner Voice will guide you in finding a retreat.

Whether you use modern conveniences or do everything by hand doesn't matter. You can walk everywhere; or ride a bicycle, or drive a car, doesn't matter, just as long as you get enough exercise. Wash your clothes by hand or in an automatic washing machine; dust and sweep by hand or use a vacuum, again, this type of thing doesn't matter.

What matters is, being comfortable and at peace, physical and mental purity, right thought action, developing an attitude of love, being kind and serving others, staying on the path and uniting the conscious mind with the Soul.

I am aware that modern conveniences, machines, electricity and automobiles are not natural by definition. If one is careful in there use, they do not matter, because they do not affect the body or the Inner Self. They save time and energy, and make life much more pleasant; but I will not argue with anyone that wants to do everything by hand.

"C'mon, Bob, let's go to the movie..." "Naw, I'd rather stay home with my Dad."

4-11-02
It has been a little over three months since, "My inner Voice has suggested that I repeat over and over, 'I Am the Christ,as often possible to bring that thought forward in my mind. So that, the Christ, is the first thing I think about in any circumstance."

This has worked pretty well. I have an awareness that, I Am the Christ, throughout the day now. On waking, first thing in the morning, I immediately think of God living in me, and thank Him for my Being. I am still thinking or saying, "I Am the Christ," on inhaling; and, "I Am One with God," on exhaling many times a day. Sometimes I think, "I send my Love and Blessings to all Beings," on exhaling.

When I meet someone on the street now the first thing that comes to my mind is, "I am the Christ." This helps me to think about things more closely before I say them and to clear my mind of judgment. This new awareness is definitely reflected in my behavior: thought, word and deed.

I know that this is just a beginning, and that I have a long way to go. But I am optimistic because this was suggested to me by my Inner Voice and it is working out. Through this I am gaining confidence in the guidance of my Inner Voice.

4-14-02
The evolution of my thinking in regards to my being "the Christ" was a slow, long drawn out process, in which I was at first unbelieving and frightened, and then awed and dismayed. "How can an ordinary person like myself be the Christ?" Unthinkable!

The awareness dawned slowly until I finally excepted the idea. I excepted the idea in theory because I still shuddered at the idea of saying, "I am the Christ," even to myself. The more I studied and thought about it, the more reasonable it became...that all people, including myself, are the Christ Being.

I was then able to cross the boundary, where I could say with certainty and full belief, "I am the Christ." Then I was able to begin in earnest to work toward realization. I now affirm dozens of times daily, quietly to myself, "I am the Christ," and thank God within, for his blessing of life and for all of creation.

I talk to God often, but not often enough... I am still making that transition from trying to learn from books to learning from the All Knowing Spirit that lives within me.

I have always loved to read. I guess it is just a habit to turn to books to try and learn about something. I have the All Knowing God living right within me and I am trying to learn how to realize the Christ from a book. I am really stupid!

My inner Voice gently tells me, "Don't say things like that...you are the Christ." "Never deny who you are...you are the Christ." "Thank you Lord, I am the Christ, I am one with God."

Realization of the Christ is a learning process. A realization of being... of being a Being that was previously hidden from my knowledge by ignorance. The ignorance of the collective world view passed on from generation to generation.

I am not learning to be, but rather unlearning things in my personal mind so that I can be my real self. It is like my Soul, my Christ Self, is buried under a huge pile of mental debris of wrong thinking that I am working to remove to free myself. My real self is trapped under that pile of wrong thinking but I cannot at this time realize it or free it because the wrong thinking holds me fast.

Soon... or just as long as it takes, and I will be free. I am on the path. "I am the Christ. I am one with God." When I pray now I often feel a slight electric charge (exhilaration) flow through my body.

4-18-02
Sometimes I come to these spiritually barren plateaus where I just don't care about my spiritual life. I feel lost and nothing interests me; I feel like I'm not making any progress at all. Intellectually I know this is not true at all. I have made tremendous gains in the past two years even with my problems with mercury poisoning and candida.

I have no thoughts about quitting the path! I know I'm just having some barren days and they will soon pass. I pray to be released from this bleak spiritual landscape.

"I am the Christ... I am One with God." I am on the Path.

4-20-02
Last night I started rereading, How To Know God, The yoga aphorisms of Patanjali, translated with a commentary by, Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, and found a very timely commentary:

Book I #30. "Sickness, mental laziness, doubt, lack of enthusiasm, sloth, craving for sense-pleasure, false perception, despair caused by failure to concentrate and unsteadiness in concentration: these distractions are the obstacles to knowledge."

"When an aspirant enters upon the spiritual life, he naturally does so with great enthusiasm. The first steps he takes are almost always accompanied by feelings of peace and delight. Everything seems easy, so inspiring. It is therefore very important that he should realize right from the start, that this mood will not continue, uninterrupted, throughout the rest of his course."

"Religion is not simply a state of euphoria. There will be relapses; phases of struggle, dryness, and doubt. But these ought not to distress him unduly. Conscious feelings, however exalted, are not the only indications of spiritual progress. We may be growing most strongly at a time when our minds seem dark and dull. So we should never listen to the prompting of sloth, which will try to persuade us that this dullness is a sign of failure. There is no failure as long as we continue to make an effort."

"...you can attack your sloth on the subconscious level by quiet persistence in making japa.*[affirmations] You are never too weak or to sick for that. And sloth will relax its hold upon you, little by little, when it understands that you really mean business."

*japa means to repeat a mantra, "of one or more holy names,"
AUM, I AM, I AM that I AM, God I AM, I AM the CHRIST,
I AM ONE with GOD etc.

This morning as I was waking up I was given a vision. The vision was of my mind flowing through my body. It was a stream of mist without banks or bottom with all kinds of things floating in it. My inner Voice said to me that the floating things were impure thoughts and if I would give up one thing a day that causes pollution in my mind or body I would soon purify my mind. I decided to give up toast and cocoa at bedtime, which I like very much.

4-24-02
Book I #21. "Success in yoga comes quickly to those who are intensely energetic."

"Theoretically, there is no reason why we should not achieve the state of perfect yoga [union] within the space of a single second--since the Atman [Soul +/-] is eternally within us and our ignorance of this fact could be instantaneously dispelled."

From: How To Know God, The Yoga Aphorisms of Patanjali.

4-27-02

"What is Japa? [Japa Yoga] What is its rational? What is its process? Japa is the repetition of a Mantra, a potent syllable or syllables, a word or combination of words, done with the object of realizing the truth embodied in the Mantra. The object may be mundane like achievement of certain states of affluence, health, power, or it may be spiritual, say, the attainment God [consciousness]..." I am the Christ... I am One with God.

"In any case the Mantra which is chosen for Japa has the necessary power within it and by constant repetition can be evoked into operation to effectuate the purpose. The vibrations set up each time the Mantra is repeated go to create in the subtler atmosphere, the conditions that induce the fulfillment of the object in view."

"The Divine Name, [AUM, I AM that I AM, etc.] for instance, has the potency to stamp and mold the consciousness which repeats it into the nature of the Divinity, for which the name stands, and prepares it [the mind] for the [realization of God] reception of the gathering Revelation of the Godhead."

From: Japa, by M. P. Pandit

Love is all there is... I AM the Christ... I AM ONE with God. I AM LOVE.

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