To live a LIFE OF THE SPIRIT one must live their HIGHEST LIGHT

The highest light of the spirit is to realize that we have separated
ourselves from God. And the goal in life is to reunite
our mind and spirit with God.

PETE'S JOURNAL, October 2001

10-5-01
As a person ascends the path they will develop "powers." These powers will be small at first, but as a person continues to ascend the path, using their 'gifts' in a righteous manner, the powers that follow will be more complex and potent. These powers are not spiritual attainments, but gifts because of spiritual attainment.

Powers should be used when needed, and then forgotten, or put another way, a person should not dwell on the powers they are capable of using, because this will not lead to further spiritual development but to mental aberration. An obsession with powers, or developing powers, is a downward path which will lead to darkness.

Powers are a double edged sword, they are very wonderful and very dangerous. Like a baseball bat is a wonderful instrument for hitting a home-run, the same instrument in a back alley on a dark night is another thing.

So, there are several considerations concerning the use of powers. If a person can use their gifts of power without becoming "attached" or obsessed with them, then I believe, it is all right to do so. But, on the other hand, if they find themselves, "a bit too proud" of their accomplishments using their powers, they should limit the use of any powers to extreme emergencies.

Powers are not spiritual development, anymore than a hand saw is a spiritual development, they are both tools, that should be used properly and appropriately, and them put aside until needed again. A person, not even a carpenter, goes around thinking how wonderful his hand saw is, and praising it and becoming obsessed with it. That would be crazy.

Powers are gifts in recognition of spiritual attainment. They could be seen as a test of a persons dedication or resolve to ascending their spiritual path. If a person is honest with themselves, and realizes that their 'ego' can not handle using a power without becoming attached to it, they should leave any and all powers completely alone.

Powers are a wonderful tool, but the flip side is that, they can be a trap set on the path to spiritual attainment. Only a selfless person should attempt to use any gift of power. Powers at times are useful, but they are completely unnecessary for spiritual attainment.

10-6-01
A simple illustration of a power, and an obsession with a power, is our use of words. Our whole culture is obsessed with words and talking. Words are not reality, but symbols for reality. We are so obsessed with words, as a symbol, that we completely miss the realities of the world we live in. Our human reality does not require words to exist, it just is, and to understand that reality what we need to do is, let go of definitions, just observe it and experience it.

In, The Teachings of Don Juan, the author, Carlos Castanadas, indicates that Don Juan believes that our ordinary reality is held together by thinking and talking. If we can get beyond the rational mind we can experience human reality as it really is. This is exactly the goal of the seeker in uniting the conscious mind with the Soul.

As I have said earlier, the trick is, to remain sane while reaching across from the reality of rational mind to the "all knowing reality" of the soul. To do this, one must let go of rational thinking, at least, be able to set it aside for awhile. Some people are able to accomplish this for periods of time by Eastern meditation.

The way of the seeker, outlined in these journals, is to be able to move from our ordinary everyday reality to the reality of the Soul, at will. To be able to experience both realities simultaneously, without traumatizing the rational mind and going insane. This can be attained by living a simple, pure, natural, spiritual life.

John Van Auken in his very well written and understandable book about, "Passage in consciousness" meditation techniques, Spiritual Breakthrough, says:

"Balance. Balance. Balance. With balance you will be able to awaken your Godly self while living in your physical self, and maintain some healthy sanity about it all. Experiencing humanity and divinity simultaneously requires an adroit balancing of realities in order to hold to sanity throughout the process."

Uell S. Andersen, in his book, The Greatest Power in the Universe, relates the following story:

"I'd heard of a man hunting in the wilds of Canada, who one
moment was stalking a moose and the next found himself crouched
on the street of a city thirty miles away, gun in hand and still
in his hunting clothes. The experience so unnerved him that he
wound up in a mental hospital, and everyone thought he'd
imagined it."

"There are moments in every life when the mind is bombarded
with new information that literally transforms its nature.
Such moments bring one close to madness. The brink is reached,
the chasm gazed down upon, one teeters on the edge of engulfment."

"The episode of the Buddha confronting the evil demons while sitting
calmly beneath the Bodhi tree is symbolic of a very long phase of the [seekers]
Journey. It is the period past the "despair unto death" when one faces the
"raw Karma" of one's personal and collective unconscious. This phase of
the journey can either drive one mad (the "insane" in hospitals are stuck
at this point), or one can endure the coming to consciousness of one's
complexes and of the archetypes, and one can acquire wisdom. To observe,
"as one would watch the harmless games of children" is the secret of
transforming one's Karma into wisdom. In this state of conscious meditation,
"the flames of hell became wholesome breezes of perfume, and the angry
thunderbolts were changed into lotus-blossoms."

From: Physicians of the Soul, by Robert M. May

The difference between people that do Eastern type meditation, which has great benefits for many people in our society, and the way of the Seeker, is that Eastern meditation is usually practiced for an hour or two a day, as time allows in their ordinary life.

The path of the Seeker, on the other hand, is a way of life. The balance that the Seeker is trying to attain is living their life so that they are comfortable and at peace in any situation or reality. They seek the truth in everything they observe and do.

The Truth is effulgent, and radiates it's own light. When a person hears, sees or reads the truth they know in their heart that it is the truth, because the Light of the Truth is the same light that Lights their Soul. God Is, and You Are, Light, Love and Truth.

10-7-01
All my life I have wondered whether it is right or wrong to kill pests that injure a person or foul their food and household. I am talking specifically about: misquotes, fleas, ticks, lice, ants, spiders, flies, wasps, scorpions; mice, gophers, moles, rats, some birds, raccoons, bears, cougars, and poisonous worms, lizards and snakes. I have tried all kinds of deterrents methods with little success: live traps, noise makers, and electronic devices.

Scientists have determined that carrots are alive and self conscious. And this is probably the case with all living food that we eat. So when we eat a carrot just pulled from the ground, we are eating and killing a self conscious entity. I am pretty sure that God intended us to eat carrots, so then the question becomes: if it is all right to kill some living things, which ones is it all right to kill and which ones is it not.

A translation of the ancient Essene scroll, Essene Gospel of Peace Vol. Book I, their is a story about Jesus killing a large tape worm emerging from a mans mouth:

"And then they all saw with astonishment and terror that Satin was coming out from his mouth in the shape of an abominable worm, straight towards the steaming milk. Then Jesus took two sharp stones in his hands and crushed the head of Satin, and drew out from the sick man all the body of the monster which was almost as long as the body of the man."

The following Quote is from Swami Vivekananda's book on the, Bhakti Yoga, Yoga of Love and Devotion:

"A good practice carried to an extreme and worked in accordance with the letter of the law becomes a positive evil. The stinking monks of certain religious sects, who do not bathe lest the vermin on their bodies should be killed, never think of the discomfort and disease they bring to their fellow human beings."

This surely indicates that Vivekananda thinks it is right and proper to kill body lice.

Every day medical doctors prescribe antibiotics and other poisons to kill living cells, bacteria's, viruses, and all kinds of molds and fungus.

In the Oahspe there is a quote that seems to shed some light on the situation:

"To kill My lambs and birds, and whatsoever I created alive, is as simple act, saith Jehovih. [Almighty God] Let no man waste much speech because of such destruction."

I do kill some pests, but still not without discomfort and guilt. If I can catch the pests, I transport them out in the woods and turn them loose. Rattlesnakes are dangerous but it is no fault of their own, and they really don't bother anything, if you don't bother them. I catch them and put them in a covered plastic bucket carry them out in the woods and turn them loose.

Cougars can be a terrible nuisance killing and eating farm animals, or just killing them for fun. And bears are death on bees and bee equipment. The state game commission is supposed to take care of catching and transporting these predators, but they never do, so it is pretty much left up to the individual. Bears and cougars are beautiful, but dangerous if cornered, and will eventually kill all of your animals. Since we got our five dogs, three or four years ago, we haven't had any more problem with these larger animals.

"What am I to do, Master, if I see a wild beast rend my brother in the forest? Shall I let my brother perish, or kill the wild beast? Shall not I transgress the law?"

"And Jesus said, All beasts that move on the earth...are given into thy power. I tell you truly, of all creatures living on the earth, God created only man after His image. Wherefore, beasts are for man, and not man for beasts. You do not, therefore, transgress the law if you kill the wild beast to save your brother's life."

"But he who kills a beast without cause...evil is the deed which he does." Essene Gospel of Peace, Book I

10-8-01
I have often quoted the Oasphe Bible in these journals. The Oasphe Bible was transcribed from heavenly records around 1882 by John Newbrough. The book is filled with information and very interesting to read.

I have spent many hours contemplating the following except from the Oasphe:

"Man only, of all My created animals, created I not perfect in his order, saith Jehovih. The most devoid of knowledge, and the most helpless of animals, created I man. The birds and beasts, move by my inspiration, perfectly in the order I made them; the bird doeth her work, and the hare fleeth from the fox. Thus differently created I man from all other things on earth; but I gave him the foundation whereon he might attain to perfection."

"And I said to man: Be thou observant of what thou shalt eat and drink, and where thou shalt dwell by day, and sleep by night. For all things shall write upon thy soul, the character and kind whereof they are made."

"If thou wilt be gentle, like the lamb, and non-resistant and docile, so thou mayst obtain great knowledge, feed thou upon herbs and fruits and cereals. But if thou wilt be ferocious, like a carnivorous beast, then thou shalt feed upon flesh and fish, and thy blood shall be hot, and thy spirit shall be stirred with passion and anger and contention and tattling and war and jealousy and love of vengeance."

"For whatsoever thou chargest thy blood with, shall be charged upon thy spirit. Because thou canst not feed on fish nor flesh but through destruction unto death, even so, destruction unto death shall come upon thy soul."

"From thine own blood shall thy spirit be inspired, even according to what thy blood containeth. It is the contamination of the blood of man by carnivorous food, whereas thou shalt ponder."

"As there was a time when I created every animal perfect in its order; so also such a time come unto man. And now is the dawn thereof. By my direct inspiration upon them shall they learn to do all things perfect, in the order of man for which I created him."

"To accomplish which, thou shalt now, first of all, adapt thyself to thy Creator, according to My highest light upon thee: To put away thine inharmony in thy blood and flesh, and in thy soul. Opening the way for My inspiration to come direct to thee, that thou mayst be one with Me." [Bold emphasis mine.]

The Goal In Life Is To Unite The Conscious Mind With The Soul.

Juanita has four days off, starting today, and we are planning on doing some fun things. However, we are planning to stay pretty close to home. US military forces attacked certain areas in Afghanistan yesterday and last night. I have had no further information or insight into the warnings I received last month.

10-10-01
I have speculated, just to myself, that, among other things, the whole human experience on earth is just one big experiment in eugenics. (The production of healthy offspring's by selected parents.) By which means the human species would be continually upgraded, physically, and in particular, spiritually.

I may have gotten this idea from reading an article of some material "channeled" to earth. My memory of the article is pretty vague, but I remember that there was supposed to be four teams of aliens working here in the beginning to develop a human creature that could live in the earth's environment. Each team developed a different race of the human animal. I say, animal, because they did not have a soul yet which made them, human beings. And as I remember it, these first human animals were only about three feet tall, and lived a very short life span.

I remember at a seance spirits talking about teams working to inspire certain couples on earth to meet, fall in love and marry. And that spirit researchers keep very complete and accurate records of these matches and there offspring's. This again sounds like a eugenics program. Anyway, I hope it is, because it seems to me that the human race as a whole is degenerating rapidly both physically, mentally and spiritually. Too many Twinkees and way to much TV and completely blind cultural conditioning.

My little daughter, Rosebud, who is in heaven told me that she was going to be my spirit guide[Guardian Angel] concerning conjugal love. (Pertaining to love and marriage on earth.) My daughter would be fifty years old in earth time, but many children in heaven choose to remain "little" until their parents pass over, and then the little spirit children can "grow up" in a family environment. I think all children would like to experience growing up in a loving family. Spirits do not reckon age the same as we do. Their seasons are measured in good works and spiritual development

I have not spoken to, Rosebud, face to face in many years. I held her in my arms once at a Masters Seance where the Angels appear in a physical body. She was the first spirit to appear and looked to be about six year old. When she appeared, she ran into my arms shouting, "Daddy, Daddy, Daddy." I held her for a few minutes and we talked and then she had to leave.

I know in my heart that it was, Rosebud, and her team of Angel helpers that arranged for Juanita and I to meet, fall in love, and marry. It must have been a very complicated process because we lived three thousand miles apart and met on an educational field trip. I love you Rosebud. Thank you!

A Masters Seance is attended by invitation of the spirits and is usually a lecture by some very enlightened Angel or Angels. (A mortal that has passed on.) There are other types of Angels that are not mortals. This seance was a little different in that we were able to physically greet and shake hands, and embrace, many of our family and friends that had passed on. It was a wonderful experience.

"With God, anything is possible."

10-14-01
"The conditions necessary for the taught [A student of truth] are purity, a real thirst after knowledge, and perseverance. No impure soul can be really religious. Purity in thought, speech, and act is absolutely necessary for any one to be religious. As to the thirst after knowledge, it is an old law that we all get whatever we want. None of us can get anything other than what we fix our hearts upon."

"To pant for religion truly is a very difficult thing, not at all so easy as we generally imagine. Hearing religious talks or reading religious books is no proof yet of a real want felt in the heart; there must be a continuous struggle, a constant fight, an unremitting grappling with our lower nature, till the higher want is actually felt and the victory is achieved."

"It is not a question of one or two days, of years, but of a lifetime. The success sometimes may come immediately, but we must be ready to wait patiently even for what may look like an infinite length of time. The student who sets out with such a spirit of perseverance will surely find success and realization at last."

The above quote is from, Swami Vivekananda's, Bhakti Yoga, The Yoga of Love and Devotion. And, I agree with everything he says, however, I believe that God and his corps of Guardian Angels watching over human beings on earth will use any legal means, and any human being to further the cause of enlightening this world.

God's love is a continuum:

"Hell
Is perhaps
The furthest
outpost
of God's
Love."

I believe that the spirituality of human kind is a continuum, and that God will use any good person to the extent of that persons "highest light" to lift up his fellow human beings and so enlighten the world. All people are on a spiritual path whether they know it or not. No one is excluded, and we should excluded no one. Again, we are one human being, one spirit, one God. Everything is a part of the Whole... ALMIGHTY GOD.

I just don't believe that a person who occasionally, "is stirred with passion and anger and contention," is a bad man or lacking spirituality. It is recorded in the scriptures that both Jesus and John the Baptist, "lost it," on occasion. I think what Swami Vivekananda is talking about is the ideal person applying the principles of Bhakti Yoga. The Bhakti yogi and the seeker are both trying to realize the ultimate goal of uniting the conscious mind with the Soul. Becoming one with God.

The seeker's path differs from the ordinary, "good person or spiritual persons" path in that the seeker is always aware of the goal. And everything that the seeker does on their path is dedicated to reaching that goal.

Always remember, that the world is filled with darkness, and that darkness will rush in to cover the least spark of spiritual light. Keep a low profile, persevere in the face of continual failure and stay on the path. Stay dedicated to your path no matter what happens or how low you get. You are on the path until you give up... never give up!

10-18-01
God is Law...and that Law is Love. The law in heaven is love. The Angels in heaven have only one weapon against the dark forces... Love. The mandate in heaven from the seat of the God's Throne of Heaven and Earth to the lowest Angels, is that evil, darkness and ignorance can be overcome only by Love.

Love, by God's Law, is the only influence that Angelic Beings can legally use to lift up and enlighten the earth and its people.

A truly spiritual person is protected twenty four hours a day by a phalanx of Guardian Angels. The Angels protect these spiritual people from the legions of dark spirits that can gain access to the lower realms of heaven that brush against the earth surface. These Guardian Angels not only protect spiritual people on earth but shed their light of understanding and love upon them, to inspire them in their good works and sustain them in their times of difficulty.

If a spiritual person, or any person, should become obsessed with a dark passion such as revenge or vengeance or plotting harm against another person, that persons Guardian Angels are required by Angelic Law to withdraw from them; and allow any dark beings that the persons evil plotting draws up to them to become their guides and source of inspiration. Their Guardian Angels must stand by and allow the persons dark thoughts and plots and evil advisors draw them down.

This is why people instinctively fear the dark because it is the time of day that these dark beings can gain access to the earth's surface and claim the minds of people thinking dark thoughts such as hatred and revenge. With the coming of dawn the Guardian Angels can again return to their charge and try to inspire them to give up their obsession with dark plots.

If the person will give up their dark thinking and renounce it and ask forgiveness for their momentary period of insanity, their Guardian Angels will again gather around them and drive off the dark beings that the person has drawn to themselves and fill their mind again with thoughts of Light and Love. These Angelic Beings are guided by their Unconditional Love for the human being that they are drawn to, to inspire and protect.

I received this information years ago from spirit teachers at a seance. I don't remember their exact discourse but the above is the essence of their words.

Pray, until your whole life becomes a prayer. And thank your Guardian Angels every day for their protection and Love.

10-24-01
At the same time I was given the above information I was told that a persons Guardian Angels carry their spirit into the heavenly realms after they fall asleep at night to teach them spiritual things and to protect them from harm.

The following is an excerpt from a translated ancient Essene scroll, The Essene Gospel of Peace, Book I, in which Jesus confirms this:

"Resist day and night the temptations of Satan. Wake not at night, neither sleep by day, lest the angels of God depart from you. When the sun is set, and your Heavenly Father sends you his most precious angel, sleep, then take your rest, and be all the night with the angel of sleep"

"And then will your Heavenly Father send you his unknown angels, [I take this to mean, the angels we are not aware of] that they may be with you the livelong night. And the Heavenly Father's unknown angels will teach you many things, concerning the kingdom of God. For I tell you truly, you will be every night the guests of the kingdom of your Heavenly Father, if you do His commandments." [Bold emphasis mine]

"And when you wake up upon the morrow, you will feel in you the power of the unknown angels. And your Heavenly Father will send them to you every night, that they may build your spirit, even as every day the Earthly Mother sends you her angels, that they may build your body. For I tell you truly, if in the daytime your Earthly Mother folds you in her arms, and in the night the Heavenly Father breathes his kiss upon you, then will the Sons of Men become the Sons of God."

I find this passage very beautiful.

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