Purify yourself and be the
Master of Spiritual Light.
And with Spiritual Light you will be Master of your Life.
Journal of one man's path toward spiritual enlightenment by physical
and mental purity, fasting, raw food diet, few words, natural living,
good works, right thinking, and exhilaration of the mind
by following the guidance of the Inner Voice.
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PETE'S JOURNAL, November 2000
11-1-00
Fasting today. Steam bath. Ate cleansing meal for supper.(Tomato, lettuce,
cucumber salad with an avocado.) When the ego asserts itself put it (the
ego) aside. Strive to live a life of humility and peace.
"When one learns to live from the Soul, the Self, and not from the
mind, everything in life is clear and understandable. You know what
you should do, where you should go, and life becomes simple and harmonious."
I am going to repeat Jesus' beautiful words from the preface to the Essene
communions, From: The Essene Gospel of Peace.
"To lift your eyes to heaven
When all men's eyes are on the ground,
Is not easy.
To worship at the feet of angels
When all men worship only fame and riches,
Is not easy.
But the most difficult of all
Is to think the thoughts of angels,
To speak the words of angels,
And to do as angels do."
"To advance, you must come to see yourself as a master. You must
conduct yourself as a master. There is no one who can teach you mastery
nor is there anyone who can give you mastership, for they are already
yours. Practice is required. You must live as a Master lives, think
as a Master thinks, act like a Master acts before you would know a master
if you were to meet one."
"Just how do you think a Master would meet the situations you have
to face every day? Try meeting your problems in the same way. How
would a Master speak to those about him? Try speaking in the same way. What
would a Master's attitude be toward those about him? Try expressing
the same attitude. Could you imagine a Master worrying about business? Would
a Master gossip and hate and become jealous and angry? Would he flinch
from some particular task?"
"Well, there is a pattern for you, for your own idea of how a Master
would face life is exactly the way you should be facing it. If you
will so face life, conscious that this is the determination moving in the Universe
with which you are one, you will find the seeds of your own Mastership
sprouting and growing into there full stature."
From: The Life and Teaching of the Masters of the Far East
11-2-00
Fasting today. Yesterday I had an experience that I had before when walking
the path. When your body becomes partially purified you may also experience
this phenomena. When using the flush toilet I felt a drop of water come
up and hit my right buttock. But when I felt my skin there it was dry.
As you become more and more physically pure the drops of water increase
until it feels like the pita-pat of a light rain hitting your bottom.
I have no idea what causes this but I stop it at home by moving the water
tube inside the toilet so that it doesn't refill the bowl. When I am in
town I cover the water with toilet paper or better, with sanitary seat
covers. What ever is jumping cannot penetrate the paper.
I've had similar experiences several times out in the woods when I was
inspired to lay down in the "healing pits" dug by animals. These
pits are dug over some kind of force field. The first time I lay in one,
it was early in the evening just after sunset and I began to feel a small
amount of liquid form on my skin at various places on my body. It felt
like the liquid was all of a sudden there and in a few seconds it would
evaporate.
It was still light enough to see the skin of my right arm so I began watching.
Pretty soon a very small shimmering puddle of liquid (maybe the amount
of a quarter of a teaspoon) seeped up through my skin and lay there shimmering.
Then after a few seconds the fluid slowly began to draw to the center
and form a small round ball, that when complete, fell off my arm to the
soil and disappeared.
I was awed and fascinated. I watched the process for a long time and finally
caught one of the little balls before it hit the ground. It appeared to
be some kind of hard shelled bug rolled up tight to protect itself. I
had no idea what was happening, but I figured getting those bugs out of
my body was a real good idea. So I lay there for quite some time.
Then I noticed a change. The bugs were hopping out of the ground, hitting
my body forcefully, then turning into a shimmering puddle of liquid, which
sank back through my skin. I watched it happen a couple of times then
moved out.
These healing force fields which the animals had found and used were cyclic,
bugs out for a period of time and bugs in for a period. I had quite a
lot going on at the time so I didn't get to study these animal healing
pits as much as I would have liked to. I had no watch with me, but my
experiences were always just after sunset and continued for some time.
I found two different spots where this phenomena happened so if I was
hallucinating, at least my experiences were consistent.
If you have either of the above experiences or anything similar, please
e-mail me about it. Collectively we may be able to figure out what is
going on. These experiences have been rattling around in my brain for
years and I would really like some insight. Thanks. I am hoping the steam
baths will clean some of this strange liquid from my body.
11-3-00
Fasting today. Steam bath and swim.
11-4-00
Fasting today. Broke fast this evening with backslider breakfast.
11-5-00
Eating today. Steam bath. Major breakthrough today. The past few days
I have been communicating with a small, calm voice within myself. The
voice claimed to be my spiritual self, my soul. I have had a lot of problems
with inner voices in the past and I have been very reluctant to accept
this voice's claim.
I was driving home from town today, praying as I often do while driving,
"I AM one with God," and the voice said to me, "Sing it"
I said, "Naw, I can't do that." The Voice said, " Try it."
So I sang aloud, "I AM one with God," and my body was immediately
filled with a thrilling feeling. I sang the words over and over and the
feeling grew and then calmed.
The voice said, "I AM Yourself, and I will only talk to you about
Truth: Love, Light, Life, Law, Forgiveness, Peace, Kindness and things
of the Spirit. If a voice talks to you about other things it is not I,
so you can always tell the difference. And I know that you are a very
private person, so I will not bother you unless its important or you talk
to me first."
11-6-00
Eating today. Juanita is home for five days, so I will put off fasting
for that time. We went out and had a backslider breakfast this morning.
I haven't had a problem staying off of any other wheat flour food except
this pancake/hash brown potatoes and country gravy breakfast.
My Voice has explained to me that I have now awakened from the illusion
of separateness and duality that I have maintained all my life. And that
I am now on the path to uniting my conscious mind with my Soul. The Voice
is the voice of my true self, my Soul, and when I can allow that Voice
to speak through me, and for me, I will be very close to complete union.
I must also learn to live a life of the Spirit and remember who I am,
and what I am every minute of the day. My Voice said that It would teach
and guide me, and that it would not be long before I began to feel the
beginning of the union taking place.
This is a completely new and different experience than I had on the path
earlier. Before, most of my experiences were external. I did have a, 'jumble,'
of voices trying to speak to me all the time. But I could never quite
figure out which voice to trust.
Facing the Truth, and living the Truth every minute seems an awesome responsibility!
11-7-00
Eating today. I had a real nice day with Juanita yesterday. After praying
this morning and reading the Essene communion for the day, my Voice told
me that an old friend of mine needed love and would I please write him.
I was thinking of a person that it could be and the Voice spoke the name
of a person that I hadn't thought of in a long time. Interesting how that
worked out! I'll write him today.
11-8-00
Eating today. Sent card to friend. Things are beginning to happen pretty
fast.
11-9-00
Eating today.
11-10-00
Eating today.
11-11-00
Fasting today. Ate a lot in the past five days and have lost contact with
the Voice. No desire to read.
11-12-00
Ate out today: backslider breakfast.
*(%=The amount I did, compared to what I should have done)
Some new things I started in the second 90 days: steam bath=15%; quit
eating wheat flour products=75%; maintained vegan diet=95%.
Some wins... some loses... try, try, try, and keep trying. I am on the path.
11-13-00
Fasting today, feel like I'm coming down with a cold. The germ theory
for the cause of contagious dis-ease (lack of ease) is good as far as
it goes. The basic cause of dis-ease is lack of physical purity. Deposits
of slimy mucus and other toxic waste are perfect breeding grounds for
germs to lodge in and multiply. Toxic waste and mucus deposits are the
residue of an acid forming diet such as meat, grains and dairy products.
Fruits and vegetables are alkaline forming and not only nourish the
body adequately but eliminate without leaving a residue. When a person
has a pure body they are no longer subject to any kind of dis-ease.
After a fruitarian diet is well established a person always have a fresh
breath, clear nose, sweet tasting mouth on waking, no ear wax, a pleasant
body odor, and a lot of energy.
In ancient Hindu scriptures, the yogi’s say, “to live a spiritual life, make the blood as alkaline as possible.” The body readily loses alkalinity on a daily basis, and retains acidity.. so it is necessary to eat a diet high in alkaline forming foods [daily] to keep the blood as alkaline as possible.
Broke fast early today.
11-14-00 to 11-21-00
Had a bad case of intestinal flu. Should have fasted to clear this up
but ate every day because I felt so lousy.
11-22-00
Seem to be over intestinal flu. Stopped newspaper delivery today.
11-23-00
Ate traditional Thanks Giving dinner today. Food tasted great but felt
lousy afterwards.
11-24-00
Fasting today. Feeling pretty dull and slow.
11-25-00
Fasting today. Feeling well. My Voice explained to me that forgiveness
in my thoughts to those who have offended me in the past throughout
my life is the first step in attaining peace and freedom. I have been
doing this for about a month now and it really works. I have not been
bothered by any nagging thoughts of being offended or guilt for my own
actions that I have asked forgiveness for.
So far, I have not recalled any forgiven memories. I'm working mostly
back in my teens and 20's now, not trying to remember, but just dealing
with offending and guilt memories as they are presented to me. Some
of these memories are pretty sorry and make me a bit depressed. I'm
really glad to let them go.
I am told that this type of forgiveness, in my mind, works because in
truth I am forgiving myself. Each person is a different aspect of one
Being... Almighty God, and we all use His one mind. Everything is One.
Forgiveness for, offenses to you or your guilt for offending others,
spoken in your thoughts purifies your mind! I am experiencing this every
day now, and it is true. "I forgive you. And now I don't have to
think of that situation anymore." Or, "I forgive myself for
that situation." "And now I don't have to think about that
anymore." And that memory is deleted from your mind.
11-26-00
Eating today. Steam bath and swim. Did grocery shopping and laundry.
A smile is light, a frown is darkness, laughter is light and a groan
darkness. A pleasant word is light, a curse is darkness, a wave of the
hand or nod of the head is light and a clinched fist or pointed finger
is darkness. Eye contact is light, avoidance is darkness. A helping
hand and sharing is light, withholding and selfishness is darkness.
Health is light and dis-ease is darkness. Life is Light and death is
darkness. Love is felt. Light is seen. Life is lived. Law is known.
And Love is the Master of it all.
11-27-00
Eating today. Nice day with Juanita.
11-28-00
Eating today.
11-29-00
Fasting today. Blew fast. Steam bath and swim. Sometimes it seems the
body and mind conspire against the Spirit.
11-30-00
Fasting today. Blew fast. Made deal with Cole to help us around the
place.
